waiting

its not the easiest thing to handle when you find out that you wont be able to fight as a black belt next year. i've been working my butt off and its really painful but whats waiting for me in a couple years will be worth it. gotta keep my head up and move forward. i feel like everything is telling me to quit and that everything is against me. my body feels like its wearing down, there is no chance of me being on team next year and im not in the place i wanna be, the place i've ALWAYS dreamed of. but i have to stop letting those things get to me. gotta stay strong for my team and fight my best. i cant give up on myself or let myself down. i dont want to live a life full of regrets. i guess all that i can do is fight to be the best. thats my plan...

TLo